Bio

Keanu Estrada
5 min readJun 27, 2022

My name is Keanu.

My identity is waking up early, using the web, spending time with family and friends. I am thankful I am able to do the things I desire.

Some people at work describe me as a hard worker and a positive presence.

I desire to contribute to something important and make my imprint on the world. I desire to make people feel good around me and tend to care what people think of me.

I recall myself being shy, quiet, scared, and playful in Kindergarten.

5 year old wanted happy meals with Super Mario action figures and got to play in the classroom, while all my classmates played outside.

5 year old me picked a barbie out in the store for my classmate to give to her because there were no more bracelets to give out (something I made with my mom) and gave it to classmates the next day.

Personal vision statement: I do dope things. I do dope sh*t.

Give back.

Sense of self, family, friends, and community.

Embrace challenges as opportunities

  • I intend to go further.

Persevere in spite of failure

  • I did not get a salary after college, December 2018. It’s August 2022 now.

Accept feedback and constructive criticism

  • My brother says I have the narrative to go into marketing.
  • My dad says he wants me to work in an office.
  • My mom says she wants me to be happy.

Time: Limited

Space: Gratitude

Circumstance: Breathing

Deadlines: Limited

Manageable chunks: life

Action by action: Do your best

“Always pursue what you love.”

What is it I like doing? Using the internet

What would you rather do than eating or sleeping? Using the internet

What would I rather do than use the internet: enjoy my time.

“You need to show up everyday, and put in the work. Again and again”

Concentrate on stuff you can control: training, diet, tasks, projects, progress

positive role models: family, friends, colleagues, community

I joined the Warriors organization, in September 2021 and we won the championship in my first season, working for them, by the end of the 2022 NBA Finals, in June. Man, we did it. :’)

My big bro suggests I go into marketing and develop digital marketing skills.

I don’t know if I enjoy scrolling LinkedIn tho.

Chelsea, my therapist, told me there will be days when I slip up.

She hammered it into my brain that thoughts, feelings, and behaviors reinforce each other, and it’s a cycle.

She suggested behavior replacement, changing your thinking, being active and engaged, rating my mood before and after things, thought records, and schedule in things that lead to positive emotions.

Meditation- work on observing thoughts

Thoughts aren’t facts.

The choice to control how long you entertain thoughts.

Shifting words/perspectives

I choose to ____ because

I have to (feel a little trapped)

Limited perspective, experience

5 other ways I could look at it

Taking time to be curious about another person’s perspective (learning)

Being aware of my self-talk

Work on breaking away from thoughts that are not helpful.

What am I without the internet? Off the grid

Interpretations of events

“That interpretation often triggers the feeling we have.”

What feelings might you feel from that interpretation?

Interpretations trigger feelings.

Listening to other person’s perspective

Some therapists recommend using affirmations.

Other connections in the brain- cognitive flexibility.

Saying the opposite can sometimes help you get there, after the negative self-talk, even if you don’t believe it.

Bring yourself back to the moment.

Practice confidence, anxiety, worry, remorse, and bringing yourself back to the moment.

Accept reality, what are your options, effective choices.

Emotion regulation- use your emotions as a resource, notice emotions without making them larger than they need to be, and reduce pushing them away.

Learn to take time to relax.

Emotions are information, not facts.

Emotions, and thoughts are not who we are, it’s something we have.

Practice emotions you wanna feel often.

Practice things that make you feel confident, competent, and capable.

Empowerment list- music

What kind of movie you wanna trigger?

Movies/music trigger emotions.

Stress management- humor

deep breathing reduces the fight or flight response — slow down

What are my stresses?

Earning a salary, working part-time, as a disabled person, who is Filipino American.

Calling- not meaningful enough/ positive impact on the world

Thought of being forever alone.

Not spending enough time with family and friends.

Sometimes people are stressed, and they get sick.

Rate your stress level (1–10)

Techniques to bring it down a notch or two

10-most stressed out

1-calm

I decrease my stress level by not using the internet.

Exercise helps build confidence, helps with anxiety and stress, preparing us to do something physical, and is good for our body.

Daily walks

Push-ups

To get fight or flight energy out — talk to friends, have a good support system, and different people for different things.

Have a variety of people to turn to, and don’t expect people to be really what they’re not.

Work through feelings. If you don’t, you might end up causing more stress by avoiding it.

Does this help me? Is it effective?

Chelsea reminded me that every day won’t be a 10 and that happiness levels tend to go up and down, like a wave.

Not putting energy into those thoughts is a skill itself.

“Practicing the behaviors and emotions you want to feel.”

I had to listen to Centipede by Childish Gambino countless times to understand the concept of working.

The summer league starts in July 2022. // passed

Training camp starts September 2022 // look to start working again at Chase.

Season starts October 2022 // Grind

How do you get better with 2 months off in July and August? You get a salary.

I usually come off as passionate when speaking to people.

Whether it’s basketball, in class, discussing social issues, ice breakers. etc.

I can be witty and passionate, displaying some of my personality.

In college, I told freshman orientation students to be themselves and not care about their exterior. It’s not about the line up and looking all clean. I used to jell my hair. Then I I grew out my hair, it’s natural.

When I graduated college, I went back to my elementary and told the graduation class to write their own story and be themselves.

The poems I heard from them, they really loved their classmates.

When you can’t sleep at 10pm

I sort out my overactive thinking brain through writing.

I’m Filipino American and have a physical disability called Diplegic Cerebral Palsy, where I walk with a limp.

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