Resilience
So, I took that interview I didn’t perform well in and applied to another full-time position. And I got it.
I choose to plan and prepare.
I choose to learn.
I choose to do my best.
Less programmed in the interviews
(less reading prepared examples off the screen and more in tune with the convo)
I believe in myself and my abilities. Stay true to myself.
Letting go tools
- Brutally honest w yourself.
- Accepting what is, so you can move forward.
- Recognize what you can/can’t control.
- Forgive.
- Make peace w yourself.
- Work through feelings and come to your senses.
- Be thankful for where you are, while knowing your journey is not finished yet.
talkin’ to phones.
talkin’ to computers.
talkin’ to screens.
It gets difficult when I’m the only one at my crib.
It gets difficult when the few options I have to eat is spam and rice.
It gets difficult when I finish all the rice.
It gets difficult when I have an urge to order through DoorDash.
It gets difficult when I debate paying $50 for one meal.
It gets difficult when I already have hundreds of dollars in expenses for the month because of smog checks, and car renewals. // August 2022
It gets difficult when I debate on ordering the carne asada fries.
Now I have more problems.
People, in medicine, offering me donuts, sweets, and full meals.
So, I’ma just listen to this podcast, and survive. I did tho.
So, I’ma just listen to music, and survive. I did tho.
So, I’ma just write a story on Medium.
Family came home w filipino food, in the evening.
From malls. From grocery stores.
Missed my bus, took the next one, ate dinner, ate again because we with family, celebrating birthdays.
Trying to find stuff to be sad about, because I’m used to low energy.
There are songs that help me cope, grieve, and purge.
I got the job.
All I could remember during my interviews is before them I would think of my friends, hyping me up, which gave me more confidence to believe in myself too. (A walking masterpiece.)
Eventually, I will get to a point where I’m self-employed.
“Havin’ money’s not everything, not havin’ it is.” - Kanye
