Giving My Fears a Face

Keanu Estrada
2 min readJun 22, 2022

I’m scared I’ll work in customer service forever.

I’m scared I’ll work for minimum wage forever.

I’m scared I’ll work for companies forever.

I’m scared a tragic ending, could end my life.

I’m scared when my parents pass, it’ll be hard for me, mentally and financially.

I’m scared I don’t spend as much time with my brothers as I need to.

I’m scared I spend too much time online, and not in real life.

I’m scared I’ll be alone forever.

I’m scared I won’t ever shoot my shot.

I’m scared people I haven’t talked to in a while, don’t love me anymore.

I’m scared I’ll never advance my skills to put myself in a place where I can be fully independent.

I’m scared I’ll have to work to death.

I’m scared I’ll be toxic in a relationship.

I’m scared I’m not that talented at anything.

I’m scared the things I put my time, money, and energy into won’t reflect what I value.

I’m scared I haven’t made a lasting, meaningful positive impact on my people, my loved ones, my community, and the world, that will reverberate many generations ahead.

I’m scared I won’t find happiness in anything I do professionally.

I’m scared I’ll lose the heart to put time, money, and energy into the things that I value.

Positive energy.

Climbing.

Cheering them on.

Mentally supporting them. Encouragement.

Get to the top.

Help the other people up.

Put the good energy out there, good energy will come back.

My personal values

Love-treating people with love

Respect-courtesy, sweetness

Peace- non-violent, clean, organized

Compassion- empathy, understanding people’s stories

Heart- keeping perspective, and centering how my heart feels

Feeling like I contributed to something meaningful gives me purpose and happiness.

Daily gratitude:

Woke up

Mental and physical health

Able-bodied

Family

Home

Friends

Bed

Internet

Car

Gas

Eat healthier

Meditate for 5 mins a day.

7 hours of rest daily.

Short-term goal: Take care of myself, family, relationships, community, etc.

Long-term goal: happy, healthy, contributing to making the world better

How do I be kind to myself: Rest

Get active: Exercise for 5–30 mins daily

Where are my setbacks, and how can I be better?

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