Fight for what I love
I desire to have people and meaningful relationships in my life.
Same amount of tired on Thursday, as riding the bus as driving the car.
I got tired of listening to music in the car, on the way home from work, this week, after traveling to Portland to celebrate a friend’s birthday.
Both my brothers were married at 25.
Pop’s says I’m still searching for a perfect girl, also he says, “There isn’t a perfect girl.” (02.18.23)
All I ever saw was to be with my girl on all-star weekend.
Lit from Within. (February 10, 2023)
Come to me in my dreams, if you love me too.
Come to me in my dreams, if you love me, like I loved you.
Personal life affects the professional life, Nilpa told me. (2023)
Professional life affects the personal life, Nilpa told me. (2023)
Physical health and mental health connected, Nilpa told me. (2023)
I remember when no one hired me. (2018-2019)
I remember sending out applications, and getting nothing.
(2018-2019)
Nilpa told me, “Don’t mind the companies who ghost you, keep applying.”
(January, 2023)
“Why can’t you? Believe in yourself, keep learning, fake it till you make it.” (2023)
I remember afternoons and nights I had to spend in the dishroom.
(2019–2020)
Not even eating lunch, in my car, just laying down in my seat; processing. (2020)
I can’t really believe this is my life after graduating college. (2019)
Washing dishes at Whole Foods. (2019–2020)
I remember days I was asked to work double shifts. (2019–2020)
I remember Nordstrom warehouse wanted me to be a cashier because my request for work accommodations was an undue hardship for the company. (2021)
I remember canvassing outside Berekely Bowl, for grocery shoppers to donate money to HipHopforChange. (2019)
I remember a Warriors fan saying I ruined her day; literally in tears, because I didn’t let her go up the escalator, and told her to go around, come back around after winning the NBA Finals, we’re high-fiving each other; (winning makes everything feel good).
(Sep 2021– Sep 2022)
I remember having to shop for groceries and bag them for a job in a pandemic. (September 2020– October 2021)
I remember having to stand on my feet for 8 hours; dishwashing, or 4 hours; wayfinding and checking tickets.
(November 2019– September 2022)
I remember getting the door slammed in my face when I was working the 2020 Census, I remember failing the exam, and thinking I’m not well-read.(August, 2020)
I remember waking up at 3 am to shop for customer’s groceries. (2021)
“I can see a thousand years from now in real life.”
3005.
I ain’t hit it yet.
5 to 5, on my Larry Itliong sh*t.
Seein’ 33’s, happy and financially free; are you happy for me?
777, like Sunshine, Big Latto.
If I don’t fight for what I love, it don’t matter.
If I don’t make the world a better place, so what?
