If I don’t fight for what I love, it don’t matter.
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I want to have connections, and people in my life.
Same amount of tired on Thursday, as riding the bus as driving the car.
I got tired of listening to music in the car, on the way home from work, this week, after traveling to Portland to celebrate a friend’s birthday.
Both my brothers were married at 25.
Pop’s says I’m still searching for a perfect girl, but he also says, there isn’t a perfect girl (02.18.23)
All I ever wanted is to be with my girl on all-star weekend.
Lit from Within. (February 10, 2023)
Come to me in my dreams, if you love me too.
Come to me in my dreams, if you love me, like I love you.
Personal life affects the professional life, a colleague told me. (2023)
Professional life affects the personal life, a colleague told me. (2023)
Physical health and mental health connected, a colleague told me. (2023)
I remember when no company was hiring me. (2018-2019)
I remember sending out applications, and getting no messages back.
(2018-2019)
She said don’t mind the companies who ghost you, keep applying.
(January, 2023)
Why can’t you, believe in yourself, keep learning, fake it till you make it. (2023)
I remember afternoons and nights I had to spend in the dishroom.
(2019–2020)
Not even eating lunch, in my car, just laying down in my seat; processing. (2020)
I can’t really believe this is my life after graduating college. (2019)
Washing dishes at Whole Foods. (2019–2020)
I remember days I was asked to work double shifts. (2019–2020)
I remember Nordstrom warehouse wanted me to be a cashier because my request for work accommodations was an undue hardship for the company. (2021)
I remember canvassing outside Berekely Bowl, for grocery shoppers to donate money to non-profits. (2019)
I remember Warriors fans saying I ruined her day, literally in tears, because I didn’t let her go up the escalator, and told her to go around.
(Sep 2021– Sep 2022)
I remember having to shop for groceries and bag them for a job in a pandemic. (September 2020– October 2021)
I remember having to stand on my feet for 8 hours; dishwashing, or 4 hours; wayfinding and checking tickets.
(November 2019– September 2022)
I remember getting the door slammed in my face when I was working the 2020 Census, I remember not passing the exam, and feeling I’m stupid. (August, 2020)
I remember waking up at 3 am to shop for customer’s groceries. (2021)
“I can see a thousand years from now in real life.”
3005.
I ain’t hit it yet.
5 to 5, on my Larry Itliong sh*t.
Seein’ 33’s, happy and financially free; are you happy for me?
777, like Sunshine, Big Latto.
If I don’t fight for what I love, it don’t matter.
If I don’t make the world a better place, so what?
