that bears fruit, only on God’s time
Tell you the stories of dealing with it on and off.
It feels like you need it, then it’s gone, did u ever need it?
And then you start to leave it, and you can’t leave it.
why’d you have to be introduced in my life, at one point in time.
it felt like happiness was all mine, it was all that shine.
that bears fruit, only on God’s time, God’s time…
kept 30 and LJ puttin’ in time; they kept climbin’ their prime.
remember days i didn’t have it
i got it and i been down.
i been down, since I got it.
since i been down, i got it.
Ever since I got it, I been down.
i been down, i been down ❤ (you got it?)
Cynicism is a drug. // u ain’t gonna put up a fight?
Sometimes, I retreat from work cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from religion cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from organizing/ community building cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from fighting injustice cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from veganism cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from capitalism cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from government, cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from people, cause it’s all toxic.
Sometimes, I retreat from self love/self care cause it’s all toxic.
Stay aware of emotions. Transmute generational traumas.
I WORK TO FIX MY PERSONAL PROBLEMS.
BROKEN/HEALED
COPING. (CONTRADICTIONS + TRAUMA + GRIEF + INSECURITIES + FALSE REALITIES (TOXIC MASCULINITY) TAUGHT)
FASTING./NOURISHMENT.
ISOLATION/COLLABORATE
TOXICITY OF SAVIOR COMPLEX
SUBJECT MATTER SERVES AS A DISTRACTION — *AVOIDS TRUE PROBLEM
OUR SUPPORT SYSTEMS (INFRASTRUCTURE) MAY HURT PEOPLE THEY CLAIM TO SERVE.
DISCONNECTING WITH THE WORLD, FOCUSING ON YOURSELF.
CONNECTING WITH THE WORLD, FOCUSING ON PEOPLE.
What is the experience of love?
What is the experience of God?
POSITIVE IMPACT // HARSH REALITIES — TRANSFORMATION.
WE NEED OURSELVES. — EMOTIONAL JOURNEY
FALLEN LEADERS — LIFE IS PERSPECTIVE + DEAL WITH YOURSELF (MIRROR)
Can’t save everyone, can’t save yourself. + Crushing Insecurities + SHELL UP + FAILURE
- shoot, edit
- experience in small teams
- see video (start-end)
- work independently/collaborate
- originate, research, write, shoot, produce and edit
Education, +100k and remote, PTO etc., health insurance
6 year plan
Focus
Attention to detail
Surround myself with people that are just as maniacal as me are about their craft
Sit back, let me process and figure things out.
Strong, independent, hold myself to my standards, self-respect, raised the right way, persistence; determination, to work through tough things.
Handle the inner monologue (emotional things), self, elements, and collaboration.
This and something better will open up for me.
- For the highest good of all involved.
I became everything I wished to see in the world.
Cleanse — Cleanse energetically
“Meditation cleans me.”
