“Transformation, then reciprocation, karma must return.” — Kendrick Lamar

Change, same energy, comes back.

“You never felt guilt ’til you felt it sober.”

Lamar suggests a person never felt guilt until they felt it without any alcohol.

I knew I had heart when I would deny post-players bigger than me by fronting them; showing a competitiveness to not let opposing players get the ball, and be in a position to score. fr fr

I knew I had heart when I still finished my mile in PE, although I had a physical disability called Diplegic Cerebral Palsy. 100.

I knew I had a love for the game when I would practice my shot a lot of the time outside practice and games. I wanted to make every shot in warmups. I believed that’s how good of a shooter I was, and the work I put in. Word…

I knew every time I saw that my elementary crush was in the crowd, I would be hyped to make shots in warmups to impress her.

I knew every time my family was at the game, I would want to make every shot too, to show them I’m good. You know I wanna impress my two older brothers, and make my parents proud.

I knew my coaches wanted me to be more aggressive in taking shots, but sometimes the defense would be all up on me, and it was the right basketball play to pass it back out. Looking back at it now, it would have probably been better to take those shots, because I was probably one of the scoring options off the bench.

I knew I had experience in building team camaraderie when I would meet up with teammates to hoop at the park, and build team chemistry. Looking back at that now, playing at the park is way different than playing in CYO, but there’s nothing like building chemistry with your teammates. Ball is life!

I knew I had to get up extra shots up after practice to perfect my shot. It didn’t lead to more playing time but it gave me more confidence in my game. Believe in myself.

When I played basketball, I gave 100% effort. Coaches seen that.

I played hard, dawg.

I’m working with my karma.

Taking a month off my part-time has made me more anxious.

More anxious that work will call me and ask me to work.

I’m grateful I get to schedule my own availability.

Sometimes I feel guilty for choosing not to work, whether it’s pressure from my employers (calls, calls, calls) or the cash runnin’ out.

I believe I’ll be successful anywhere, I’m Keanu.

That’s the time I’m on.